I’ve been back to work for a month now. We’re managing fairly well, I think. Most of our ability to manage is due to the fact that I have fantastic parents who save my butt on a regular basis. My parents have always been a huge help, but they have been even more so this year, when I’ve been making daily trip to the gym at times that weren’t convenient for my husband to be home. I have no idea how we would manage this ‘two working parents’ life without their help. The boys have been moving in with Grammy and Pappy for my entire rotation and spending evenings on my days off there as well, so that I can get to the gym. So thankful for them!

I knew that going back to work was going to be a challenge. My kids were going to have to adjust to not being at home with me everyday (and vice versa...I love being home with my boys). I was going to have to figure out how to find time to get to the gym around a job with shift work. I was going to have to prepare myself food-wise for busy days/nights at work and also for the slower days/nights where I’m-bored-so-I’ll-just-eat-something is so easy. Add into that mix the fact that my husband works on a potato farm and has been working 100+ hour weeks digging since just after I returned to work. 

So far I have managed to stay on track. I’ve been getting to the gym at least 3-4 days a week. I was worried about keeping the desire to hit the gym. During the time that I was going to the gym just before I found out that I was pregnant with Hudson, I tried to go after work. It was easy for a short time, but then it became a chore and I started opting to just go home more frequently that I chose the gym. I wasn’t really having any success with losing weight so really didn’t have any motivation to keep going. And I hadn’t been going long enough for it to have become habit. Both of those things are different this time around. I’ve hit my goal weight and don’t want to undo all of the success that I have had, and I’ve been at this long enough for my workouts to be part of my life and not just something that I have to do. I feel like the workout part of this return to work adjustment is solid.

I did some food prep before starting back to work and I’ve been able to keep my eating fairly on track. At least work-wise that is. I’ve been struggling a little with eating more crap than I should be, and adjusting to the maintaining-not-losing frame of mind, but that’s another post all together. 

I pack a rather large lunch cooler for each shift with 3 meals and lots of healthy snacks for every shift. I come prepared. I wasn’t entirely prepared for how easy and tempting it would be to fall back into old habits. I’ve read and heard stories about people losing huge amounts of weight only to gain it all back, and the thing that always came to my mind is why?!? and how?!?. I never understood how, after working so hard, they could let them slip back to ground zero. Being back to work has given me a little glimpse into the why and how. 

It would be so, so, so easy to fall back into old habits. 

My job seems to conspire against me. Our base is behind a local pizza place. On a regular basis the wind wafts the tantalizing scent of pizza and garlic fingers across our parking lot and into the building. Standing outside around lunch or suppertime to enjoy the beautiful fall that we’ve be blessed with is dan-ger-ous!

It's a good thing there is a fence between us and the pizza place

Work has been pretty busy since I’ve been back. On both of my day shifts last week I spent the entire 12 hours away from our base. A reprieve from the garlicfingerpizzadeliciousness wind, yes, but tiring. That many hours away from base means trying to grab something to eat quickly before the radio tones go off, calling your truck number and you’re in gear again. It means fueling up the truck then walking into gas stations and being confronted with chips, candy and chocolate. It means that all of the fast food places look soooooo tempting for an easy, sinful supper on the way home.

Add to that, night shifts add hours to my day. At home, after the boys go to bed around 9 pm, I go to bed. I don’t stumble down the stairs in my sleep to stand at the fridge and snack, so for about 8 hours I don’t need to try not to eat crap. At home I get 8 safe hours when I don’t need to convince my stomach that it is just bored, not hungry. On night shifts, that is not the case. We are able to sleep some when we’re not busy but I prefer not to be woken to do calls so I stay up much later than at home. Even on slow nights when I’m not awake doing calls, I routinely see 1 am. That adds 3-4 hour more waking hours in which I need to battle the beast. 

A co-worker of mine has a son that's selling chocolate bars as a fundraiser for his gymnastics group. An ambulance base that has people in and out all day long is a fantastic place to stick a whole case of chocolates and have them sell. When my boys have junk to sell for fundraisers you can bet that I'm going to haul it all to work and let everyone else buy it. But for now, the chocolate covered almonds stare at me from across the room. 

Falling back into the old habits and my old lifestyle would be so easy, but in the past month I've also been reminded that it is so worth it to not go back. I have a job that can be very physically demanding at times, and I notice a gigantic difference between trying to do the job at 250lbs and now at 165lbs.

It feels like they made the ambulances bigger while I was gone. We work in some pretty cramped places, and the back of an ambulance is far from spacious but I don't feel stuffed into it anymore. I can move around and get the things done that I need to so much more comfortably. 

I can wear my work sweater on calls now. I never could before because the littlest amount of activity, or a home with the heat turned up had me sweating from the minute we walked in the door. I used to be drenched at the end of most calls, even ones that were relatively easy. 

The intermediate and advances care medics carry a drug pouch that has our controlled medications in it. I used to have to wear mine at my side because if I wore it at the front of my belt I couldn't see into the pouch past my stomach to see which drugs I was taking out. I wear it quiet comfortably at the very front of my belt now. 

I wear tall work shirts so that they stay tucked in when I'm moving around on calls. Before, I would tuck my shirt in then pull it most of the way out again so that they untucked part "hid" my stomach. I don't have a stomach to hide behind a puffy shirt anymore.

I'm sure I will continue to have days when slipping back to old habits would to be easy thing to do. I just hope that I can keep finding reasons to never go back again.

Body Image

Body image is such a weird thing.

When I was over weight, I obviously knew that I was over weight, but I don't think that I really saw it in the mirror. I always saw myself as smaller than I really was, and that allowed me to not do anything about it. I would get unpleasant reminders when I needed to buy a new piece of clothing and had a hard time finding things my size, but for the most part, I don't think I really saw it.

I looked in the mirror and saw an athletic build, with too much belly, but an athletic build. I've said it before, but I honestly thought I was just built bigger and that the healthy BMI range for my height was a ridiculous underestimation and wouldn't be achievable. I was strong and saw myself in that light.

Some of this semi-comfort definitely came from the fact that I knew that my family and especially my husband loved me as I was. I'm not sure where else it might have come from, but it was there. It wasn't confidence...far from that. I just didn't see enough of a problem to want to change it.

This distorted body image did nothing for my health, but in a weird way it served me well, in that I didn't hate really myself. I wasn't happy with my body, but I didn't really loath it either.

I assumed as I lost weight, that I would either continue to see myself as smaller than I was or start to see myself accurately. I was wrong on both guesses.

It has come as a complete surprise that my self perception has actually done a 180. When I look in the mirror now, most of the time, I don't think I quite see myself accurately. I don't see the old me, but I'm not really seeing the new me yet either. My brain can't compute just how much smaller I've gotten.

Since I've started back to work, every time I hold up my work pants to put them on my brain looks at them and says, "There is no way those are going to fit" and there is still a feeling of surprise when I can not only pull them on higher than my knees, but all the way up and fasten them. 

My husband has taken to calling me Skinny Minnie, people have asked if I'm done losing weight and people have actually used the word skinny, string bean, and tiny to describe me. These are words that never in a million years did I ever think would be used to describe me.

I'm assuming and hoping that as time goes on I'll get more accustomed to this body that I'm walking around in. I had 29 years to get used to that old body. I just need some more time to get used to this one. 

I did some food prep to get ready for my return to work this weekend and a few people wanted the recipes that I used, so here they are.

The first recipe came from Trainer Awesome at my gym. I love cabbage rolls but have never made them because the process sounded too daunting. I’ve typed the recipe as I received it, but I changed it some when I made it.

This casserole is YUMMY! and was super easy.

I changed the recipe for two reasons. One, to suit my own tastes, and also because I was making it with the intention of being able to portion and freeze.

My plan was to just double the recipe, so I used 2lbs of ground pork (I much prefer ground pork to ground beef), 2 onions and 3 smallish stalks of celery. I also added 1 orange pepper, chopped, and 6-7 white mushrooms sliced, to the veg.

I didn’t have any version of garlic in the house, so there was none in my casserole. I did use probably 1 1/2 Tbsp of chili powder and maybe 1/2 Tbsp of cumin. I may have added a few shakes of italian seasoning too, but I’m not sure. I’m kind of a just throw it in the pot kind of cook. The spice measurements are very much ballpark...add to your own tastes.

After I sauted the veggies and then added and browned the meat, I cut up my cabbage. I despise our grater and didn’t feel like digging out the food processor for just 1 head of cabbage, so I just quartered it, sliced each quarter in fairly thin strips and cut around the core when I got down to that point.

Once I got one cabbage sliced, I knew that there was no way that everything was going to fit in my cast iron dutch oven baking dish as it was, let alone with doubling the cabbage. I put a layer of cabbage at the bottom of my two biggest baking dishes, covered with meat/veg and then topped with the remaining cabbage. There was no more room for any additional cabbage at that point.

I added about 1 C of vegetable broth to each dish, instead of the water that the recipe calls for.

I covered and baked for what ended up being about 2 1/2 hours.

As they cooked and the cabbage wilted down there was more room in the dishes. I was happy with the ratio of meat to cabbage, but being able to add more cabbage would have lowered the calories per serving. Next time I might try sauteing the cabbage a little before it gets layered in to see if I could get 2 heads of cabbage to fit.

The way I made the recipe yielded 9 portions of about 190g each (I weigh everything...that weight portion fit in my 1 1/4 C containers) and according to my.fitness.pal, this is how the nutritional info breaks down.
276 Calories
15.9g Total Fat
65.4g Cholesterol
125.8 mg Sodium
12.9 g Total Carbs
4g Fiber
7.4g Sugar
20.3g Protein (that one seems a little high to me....maybe? Input anyone?)

I’ve been eating mine with a 1/2 C serving of a 7 grain rice blend. Love it!


Baked Cabbage

1lb extra lean ground beef (or ground meat of your choosing)
1 medium onion, chopped
1 stalk of celery, chopped
3 cloves of garlic
1 tsp olive oil
Salt and Pepper, to taste
1 medium cabbage, shredded
1/2 cup water

Pre-heat oven to 350 F. In a skillet, saute onion and celery, garlic in olive oil until just soft. Add meat, salt and pepper, stir and leave over heat until meat is cooked through. Spread half of the shredded cabbage in a 2 quart baking dish and cover with all of the meat mixture. Add the remaining cabbage. Pour water over top and cover and backe for 1 hour.



The other recipe I made was one that I’ve been making for a few months now, and LOVE! Really easy, and tasty. Gives the chowder taste and texture without cream.

I had never used leeks before I made this recipe for the first time. I love onions but was intimidated by having to clean the leeks. It’s really not that hard and they are really good. This soup is definitely worth the little extra work.

This last time I doubled the cauliflower and used 2 heads, doubled the liquid and was more careful about controlling the heat and retaining as much liquid as I could. With the double cauliflower I got about 10 servings. Each serving is 2 of my soup ladles...probably 1 C total. I haven’t run it through my.fitness.pal with the extra cauliflower, but the original recipe rings up at about 160 calories per serving, without the shredded cheese on top. Sometimes I do add the cheese, but I enjoy it without just as well.


Cauliflower Leek Soup

3 Leeks, light green and white part
1 head of Cauliflower
2 tsp Olive Oil
2 C Water
2 1/2 C Milk
Bay leaf
Salt and Pepper, to taste
3 Tbsp flour

Optional: Shredded Cheese


Cut and clean leeks well. Here is a good video to show you how, if you’ve never used leeks before. (I use the half moon technique)

In a large pot, saute leeks in olive oil until soft.

Cut cauliflower into small to medium sized florets.

When leeks are soft, add cauliflower, water, 2 C milk (I use 1%), bay leaf and salt and pepper. Reduce heat to just a simmer, and cook covered until cauliflower is soft. If the heat is too high the milk will boil over when covered. Just reduce the heat some...if you cook it without a cover you lose a lot of the volume of your soup.

Once cauliflower is soft, combine the remaining 1/2 C milk with the 3 Tbsp of flour in a separate bowl. Add slurry to pot and stir until soup thickens.

Can be served topped with some shredded cheese.



Hopefully you all enjoy these recipes as much as I do. I live in a house of picky eaters, so Hudson is the only other one that will eat these, but that just means they last longer for me! I froze portions of both of these and they thaw well. The soup does end up being a little more watery when it’s defrosted, but not overly so. Still yummy!

Some people also asked about my 'healthier' snacks. The little ziploc baggies in the picture are Pepperidge Farms Barbecue Cracker Chips and Special K Sour Creme and Onion Cracker Chips. When a bag or box of things like that come into the house I pre-portion them by weight. That way I don't sit down and eat the entire box mindlessly. I know they aren't really healthy options but they are enough to satisfy my junk cravings (most of the time) and are a little bit better than actual chips!

Goal

It's been far longer than I would have liked since my last post. I write bits and pieces of blog posts in my head everyday, but getting them actually typed has been proving difficult. W loves watching things on you.tube and as soon as I sit down at the computer, he needs to watch something, or Hudson needs something. 

I am proud to say that this week, I hit goal weight. I've lost a total of 78 pounds since January of this year. 

As nice as it was to see the number on the scale, it feels a little anti-climactic. I'm feeling a lot of what now?, and I need to find something else to work towards. 

Veggies seemed to be the key to breaking through my plateau. As much as my diet was still a more or less healthy one, when I really looked at it closely, I was starting to get a little slack and one of the main things that had changed was how many veggies I was getting everyday. I had gone from eating 1-2 cups of veggies with every meal to maybe half a cup with one meal a day. Not only was I not getting enough veggies each day, not eating those veggies left me hungry and looking to fill up on something else. I never gave up bread at any point, but I had been decreasing the percentage of my daily calories that were coming from bread.

So, over the past couple of weeks I’ve made a much more concerted effort to stay on top of groceries so that there were lots of veggies around and to make sure that they were getting onto my plate. More salads with lunch, and more veggies as sides with supper. More fruits as snacks as opposed to the other things I was snacking on, like the 100 calorie granola bars, or crisps, or cracker chips. 

And, it worked. It definitely wasn’t super speedy, but it was movement on the scale in the right direction each week (or each day in my must weigh each morning world) and then this week I finally saw the number that I had been looking for. 

I’ve had lots of people ask me, “So, are you done now?”. My answer is, not really. I think that my weight will probably go down a few more pounds. I’m not going to push it too hard, but I’m not doing anything really drastic and I think that my body will probably drop a few more pounds. I don’t think I’ll change my goal weight though. And besides the number on the scale, if I’m being completely honest, I’m not satisfied with my body quite yet. Don’t get me wrong, I know I’ve come a long way and have lots to be proud of, and I definitely am, but I want more definition in my muscles, I want to be able to lift heavier weights, I still want to be more fit. 

I’m coming very close to returning to work (eek!) and I am very well aware that I’m not going to be able to be a gym rat anymore. But I’ve made my health and fitness such a part of my life that I know I will find the time to continue to work on my body. Like every other aspect of our lives over the coming months, I’ll figure out what works. I have fantastic support systems both at home and the gym, I hope to build some new support and get some co-workers to join me when I go back, and I’m committed to figuring it out.

Now I just need to come up with some new goals.

Thanks to everyone that made comments and suggestions after my last post. And especially to those that offered encouragement. I’m lucky to have people to remind me of my successes when I’m feeling a little low!

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There are so many opinions about, and price ranges for, health and fitness gear and tools. Is expensive always better? Does any of the gear actually help us get more fit or fit faster? Do we need any of it? 

I thought that I would make a list of a few of the things I have fallen in love with, the things I use at the moment but am open to new options for, and some of the things that are on my wish list. 

I'd love to have input from you guys, both about the things on my lists and also what would be on your own 'must have' fitness gear lists. What have you tried that was a waste of time and money? What do you swear by?

(*Pictures are all generic ones pulled off of Google)

Things I Love

• Old Navy compression capris (I paid $24.94...they are currently on sale for $18.00!)
  
  
  

I didn’t buy these specifically because they were compression. Selection in the store the day that I was there was pretty bare bones and I needed some new workout bottoms. The patten looked like nothing special on the rack, but I LOVED them the minute I put them on. The way they looked in the change room was why I bought them, but they have quickly become my favorite pair of bottoms. I tried both a size large and a size medium, buying the medium. The large fit but over the past few months it seems like within a few weeks of buying a new pair, they are falling off of me at the gym, and I was tired of relegating almost new clothing to the ‘can’t wear pile’. The medium take a few second to get into, but once they are on, they feel awesome. They keep the jiggling to a minimum without making me feel claustrophobic and never fall down. It’s a little bit of a pain to get them pulled back up after a mid-workout bathroom break once you’ve started to sweat, but that’s a small price to pay as far as I’m concerned.

• Contigo water bottles (Mine came from Costco, somewhere in the 3 pack for $20 range)
  

I love these water bottles. I’m kind of a water bottle junkie and love trying new water bottles. I’ve tried the Bobble, aluminum ones, Nalgene ones, but this is my favorite by far. I love the autoseal covers, they are a perfect 24 oz size, and won’t cost you an arm and a leg. 

• Lug Cartwheel bag (Retails for $106.00)

I got this bag for free by using some Airmiles. I never would have paid full price for it before trying it out, and honestly, as much as I really like this bag, I don’t think I’d ever pay full price for it. I had never heard of the Lug brand, but the videos I found online for it looked like it would be a functional bag, and it wasn’t really costing me anything so I gave it a try. The biggest feature that I was looking forward to trying out was the outside sleeve for a yoga mat, but that isn’t why I like this bag. I actually don’t use the mat sleeve, but not because the design is bad. I use a 3 year old Lululemon mat that I bought second hand, and it’s a little bit thicker than standard mats. I don’t find that it fits well in the sleeve without squashing things on the interior, so I don’t use it. All of the pockets on the bag were a little intimidating at first, trying to figure out what I was going to put where (I’m a little OCD when it comes to things like that....things need to have a ‘home’ or it drives me crazy and I can never find anything) but now that everything has a spot, I love them. The key fob that attaches on the inside with a clasp is perfect for my gym after hours swipe pass, the vented compartment keeps my sneakers away from everything else (although it does eat away some of the space on the inside of the bag, but the sneakers were going to take up space no matter where I put them) and it’s just big enough to carry my gym clothes, or a change of clothes, depending on the situation. And the colors rock! Mine is the teal-blue color.

Because I like my Cartwheel so much, I’m actually contemplating another Lug bag for my work bag when I go back to work in the fall. We’ll see if I can cough up the cash for it though!

• Seconds Pro app (I forget how much this app was, but I think it was in the $1.99-$2.99 range)

This is my favorite of any interval timer app that I’ve ever used. It plays music from my itunes in the background and can be customized to pretty much any type of interval timer I was. I hate watching a clock when I’m doing intervals....it makes the intervals seem so much longer, so this lets me just listen to my music and then gives me 3 second countdowns between intervals. Love it.

• Luna Protein Bars (Retails around $3)

I bought these when they were on clearance, before I started using protein powder. I haven’t been buying them lately because I don’t need them as an extra protein source and they are a little pricey for me when not on clearance. They run about 180 calories per bar, which is about the lowest I’ve seen in a protein bar, and they aren’t tiny little one bite things. Nutz Over Caramel is a good one, Smore....not so much. 9g of protein per bar, so not a huge protein source but I liked them for before a workout to have something on my belly.

• Earth's Own Coconut Almond Milk (Retails for around $3.50 in the health food/organic section of Superstore of Sobeys)

I’ve looked for a long time for a dairy substitute that I liked. I had issues in the past with extreme belly pain that was eventually blamed on irritable bowel, and have wanted to try to decrease my dairy intake a little bit, but I love cow’s milk, and hate soy milk, and regular almond milk. But I love coconut almond milk! I love coconut and it sweetens it without being a sweetened almond milk. I actually don’t really like the taste of cow’s milk any more.

• MyFitnessPal (FREE!)

I have kind of fallen off of using MyFitnessPal to track my food lately, mostly because I tend to eat the same things and have gotten comfortable enough with their calorie content that I can keep a running tally in my head as the day goes by, but I credit a lot of my success to using MyFitnessPal. It kept me accountable with my calorie intake, gave me ranges for protein, carbs, fats and other nutrients, and kept track of my calories burned. Just like the machines at the gym, the calories burned is just an estimate, but it gives you the general idea. I don’t love it for tracking strength training exercises so I never included that part of my work outs. I love that I can have it as an app on my phone, but it also has a web version for people without smart phones. And it’s free!

• Food scale

Like most people, my perception of serving size was way out of whack. I weigh almost everything I eat so that I know I’m eating a proper serving size. I prefer the scale to measuring cups because I find it easier to measure things that don’t really fit in a measuring cup well. I’m sure you can spend all kinds of money on a kitchen scale, but mine was around the $25 range. I suggest having one that will measure in both grams and ounces, and one that has a zeroing function so you can negate the weight of plates or other foods added.

Things I Use, But Don't Love

• Jogi small towel (No picture...I can’t find one. But my towel is pink)

I sweat. A lot. If I don’t have a hand towel with me, I end up with sweat dripping down off of my nose and collecting in a puddle at my feet. I used a normal bathroom hand towel at first but wanted one that was a little more absorbent and dried more quickly. I got this Jogi one at Superstore for around $10 and it’s ok, but nothing to rave about. It dried quickly but I’d like it to be a little bit more absorbent. I’m still on the hunt for the perfect gym towel.

• Weight lifting gloves

I don’t even know the brand of my current weight lifting gloves. I bought them at Winner’s for $5 and I guess I got what I paid for because they started falling apart within a week or so. I want a comfortable pair that will last, without costing a fortune.

• Lululemon yoga mat

Like I said above, I got my yoga mat second hand. I paid $30 for it. I like the fact that it’s a little bit thicker than an average mat, but I don’t love the material. If I use it in a class other than yoga, when I have my sneakers on, it pulls at the foam and tears little bits out of it. I doubt I can have it both ways, having both the thicker mat and also made out of a more durable material, but I think for my next one I will opt for the tougher material. Any suggestions?

Wish List

• Polar FT40 heart rate monitor

I drool over these online on a daily basis, and they really aren’t that expensive, but there are just so many other things on the need to buy list ahead of a heart rate monitor that it has stayed on the wish list. I would really like to get a better understanding of just how hard I’m working at the gym and how many calories I’m actually burning. 

• Scale with body fat %

This is something (not this brand specifically) I’d like to try but don’t feel it would be worth my money to buy one. My weight on the scale isn’t moving very much now that I’m closer to my goal weight, but I’d love to know if my body fat % is still changing or not. 

So there is my list. What do you love? Have you tried these products and have a different opinion than mine?

Frustrated

I'm getting pretty frustrated with this plateau. It feels like I've been battling these last 10 pounds forever, and I'm feeling more than a little defeated.  

It would be one thing if I was eating crappy, or not getting to the gym and had a real reason to be so stuck, but neither of those are true. I know my diet isn't perfect, but it's mostly a healthy one and, I think more importantly, it's one that I can maintain without feeling deprived. 

 I've tried both decreasing and increasing my daily calories and neither has worked. 

I'm at the gym every day, sometimes doing two workouts or classes back to back, so I'm burning calories.

I'm starting a month of TRX classes in August to try something new. I think my body is becoming too accustomed to what I've been doing. But I honestly don't think TRX is going to change the scale much. 

I know that I said before that if I had to fight too hard to get to the 'healthy' BMI that I would just change my goal weight, but that feels like giving up to me right now. I feel like there is no reason why I shouldn't be able to get to that weight. 

I'm happy with my progress so far, don't get me wrong, I'm just not at the point that I'm satisfied with my body. It feels extra frustrating that I've gotten so close to goal but can't actually get there. 

I've started having dreams that all the weight I've lost starts piling back on despite my doing everything "right". This plateau needs to give soon. I'm just at a loss as to how to make that happen. 

How has everyone else dealt with plateaus? What finally worked to get you through them?

Progress Pictures

Lots of people have been asking to see current pictures of me. It's a good thing I'm not a 16 year old girl, because I can't take a flattering "selfie" to save my life. But I made an attempt this morning and they will have to be good enough.

First, lets start with some before's, shall we? I don't have a lot of before pictures. I'm the mom behind the camera most of the time, and I avoided being in front of it because I didn't like how I looked.

This is a picture of my driver's license. I need to go get a new one because I look different than I do in this picture.

                                                This one is from Halloween 2011.

We took this one just before Christmas 2012 as part of a present for my grandparents. Ignore the frame in our hands.

This is the first time I tried on my bridesmaid dress. I had already lost a few pounds, 10 maybe, by the time I tried it on. It zipped, but hung horribly and was really uncomfortable because it didn't fit.

Now for some "on the way" pictures. I haven't made it to goal weight (or maybe more importantly, body composition) yet so I'm not calling these after pictures. 

For comparison, here I am at the wedding, in the above dress. The dress still kind of didn't fit that day, but it was because it was too big. And couldn't be taken in any more....it had already been taken in about 7".

These next two are ones taken within the past few weeks at the cottage, both with Hudson.

And finally, here is my attempt at a picture this morning. 70 pounds lighter than I was in January.

And of course because I'm not the only person in this house changing, here are a few pictures of the boys lately.

Wyatt with the avocado pit we are growing. It took 2 months but it now has two roots and is actually sprouting. We need to get it out of the mason jar full of water and into some soil.

Bath time. They are both little fish!

High 5, Hudson!